Dear Pa,

how are you? how is it there at the other side? how does it feel to be not worrying or not feeling pain in the heart? i have always prayed that you and ma be spared from suffering and pain when you were still here. i never wondered then whether my prayers were heard. i even prayed that i be spared from pains of the heart, but then i wondered whether my prayers were even heard. i guess not, until now they aren't.

 Ma is fine, manong is not. i just can't understand why he can't get to his wits and fix himself. feeling sorry for ones self is an affliction to the weak, why is he weak? i guess that's the same question you have been asking too before.

 Pa, maybe you will never show yourself to me anymore, but i still remember you everyday as i say my prayers. yes, i still pray even if it is not heard. i know that, because my heart is still in pain.

 Pa, thank you very much.

 Lovingly,
Budz